Today was greattt! (:
I'm so glad we cleared our misunderstandings with one another!
Even though it was painful, I'm really glad we did it, as a batch, as a level.

YAY, thinking about it now, that was the best way to end the Friday. (:
Hee, usually Friday ends with an anti-climax of Guides, meaning I'm sad that there's no school the next day cos I enjoy Guides so much. HAHA.

I'm sorry that things had to turn out the way it did. I guess we all just have to learn from our mistakes and step up much more.

I love you, Sec 3 Guides! :D

I shouldn't be that negative. I mean, other people will always be there too. They're not in their circle, like me, but still, I don't believe we can't get along together. I'll try. I'll try and be neutral. We're a level, a batch after all. We must work hard together. United we stand, divided we fall.



If I went for TKPS camp/Camp Challenge, would things have been different?

Shall I say I've made up my mind?

Surprise, surprise! Yeah, today was basically 'surprise, surprise'. Let's start from Guides. Haha. I'm very pleased by today's activities. Finally I got to do sthg solid. Last week I missed more than half of Guides due to Induction Ceremony rehearsal. So today we had axemanship, turfing and firelighting. Yay, I love turfing and firelighting! :D You get such a huge sense of satisfaction when you see that your fire is dancing in the wind, and the structure is up and good. :)

The ex-Sec 4s came back today. Thank you for coming back! :)

AND ABOUT MELAKA TRIP! AHHHHH, I don't know what to do! Should I go, or not? Actually I reallyreally want to go, but then I'm afraid there are more overseas trips for Guides later this year, that I know I would like to go.
So how?
HOWHOWHOW?
I'm stuck. Oh no. I'm always stuck with these kind of decisions.
I guess the most, I'll just use my own money...

Today was quite an emotional day.
It started out to be tiring, then emotions went up, esp. during English, when my group laughed all the way to the bank. Then came Guides, which was alright, until I hit a point, where I got so annoyed and irritated. I wouldn't call it my boiling point, it's much less than that, but some ppl might notice, no? Anyway, I thought things will change (at least a little bit), esp. since we're all together as a level discussing, but things obviously didn't turn out the way I had expected. ): Instead, I felt worse. But then this hasn't got to do with anyone in particular's fault, so, part of it is just me. Yeah.
And then after Guides, the very unexpected happened. Nevertheless, it perked me up, made me smile. :) So, thank you! :)

Sighhhh, whenever I look out of the window, it reminds me of how sad it is to see that Bishan Park has so many trees cut down, and i can view half of the entire park now that the trees are gone. ): So sad! Everything seems weird without those trees covering my view of the grass. And it'll take more than a year till the bridge is open again! How long can that be? That'll be more than a year of not jogging in BP. So exercising will mostly depend on school.

Today was fun, painting the banner. I felt so funny and weird, I felt like I was talking a tad too much. Was I, no? I don't know, everytime I have that feeling I'll just talk non-stop and blabble whatever that comes to my mind. =.= That's so funny!

I'm really thinking about future patrol outings. I'm thinking of Thinking Day. I'm thinking of Farewell. WHYWHYWHY? I should stop myself from thinking so far. TD is about a month away, and Farewell is like, 5 months away?! SO WHY AM I THINKING SO FAR AHEAD? I don't want the Sec 4s to leave, I don't want Farewell! I don't like Farewells, except for the performance part. Hee. :) But still, Farewell means that the Sec 4s are stepping down. ): As much as I don't want last year's batch to leave, I don't want this year's too!
In short, I DON'T WANT SEC 4 FAREWELL.



You know how some people are just so irritating? Just so arrogant? Just think that they can get whatever they want, just open their mouths, ask for it, and it's theirs? I can't stand it when people complain about this and that, and act like everything must be done to suit them. There's a word to describe it (I think), but I will be kind not to use it.

Sec 1 Induction Ceremony yesterday was really a success. This is the first time I really feel proud of myself, proud of my duty, proud of the whole event. Haha, first time doing a backstage duty, quite interesting, to view the performances at a close view. :) The whole event was generally well-organised, and it was really heartwarming to hear all those positive remarks and feedback of the parents! :) The teachers were smiling, the I/Cs were smiling, the leaders were smiling! Yay, great job to all of us. :) And of course, to the teachers and I/Cs!

Yesterday I stayed overnight at Sentosa. Haha, I know this is really random, like after Induction after a little while, went to Sentosa, stayed overnight, then came back this afternoon. Haha! Just a short getaway. But at least the homework was more or less completed. :)

I'm looking forward to tmr. Looking forward to school. I can't believe that I really want to go to school, despite the homework load and stuff. Actually I've always been like that ever since I started schooling, since kindergarten, I believe I always have a positive attitude towards going to school! HAHA I'M NOT BEING EGO. xD But cos when you go to school, you have things to do, you're with your friends, you just have some kind of distraction. Hmm, distraction from what? Actually, I don't know. =.=




When the rain
Is blowing in your face
And the whole world
Is on your case
I could offer you
A warm embrace
To make you feel my love

Make You Feel My Love by Adele. What a beautiful song. (:

Hopefully writing here will make me feel better.

And talking to Si Min.

Sigh. Things are starting to take a toll on me.
But I won't ever give up.
I'll fight all the way for what I feel I should be given.

I really hope this will not last forever. I'm really hoping, like what Si Min said, that maybe after some events, we'll all be together again, much more bonded than ever. :)



Hopefully.

Oh no, I suddenly really, really want to join the Thinking Day Banner Competition. :/ Grrr, how? I was really considering carefully whether I should join. I really wanted to join but then I was unsure on the workload for other areas. ): Boo. ): Never mind, I shall ask Shirley about what their progress! :D

(Hmm, does it seem very kaypoh?)

I like City Square Mall! It's so spacious, and it really gives off the strong impression that it's Singapore's First Eco Friendly Mall. I like that mall, not really because of the shops there, but off the layout and the atmosphere. The shops there aren't like those you can find in normal shopping centres, some are very unique and... just not common. There's a nice scrapbooking shop there! The stuff there are really nice. And then the Popular is also very nice! HAHAHA EVERYTHING IS NICE. There're many accessories shops. :) Yay, I shall go back there again! ;)

Mirror Lakes! :D

This afternoon, when Carin told me that her interview was at 8.45am tmr, I asked, "TOMORROW? 8.45am?"
Then she nodded her head.
"In the middle of class?"

=.=

Geddit?

Wow, in my perspective, I feel that I'm too used to school.
Is there sthg wrong with me? When I realised that tmr is a Saturday, I was a bit... disappointed. Seriously! I'm beginning to like school life even more! HAHAHA I KNOW, it's only the very beginning of Sec 3, there's much more to come. But I just find myself weird that I'm a tad disappointed that there's no school tmr... HAHA! No, I don't need to see a counsellor!



You know I was thinking, what would happen in April/May 2011. *shivers* Oh man, just the thought of it makes me wanna take it back. Time flies. That's all I can say... ):

Fourth day of school! Basically now I've met all my teachers, and have attended at least 1 lesson of every subject.

Yesterday and the past few days have been quite bad for me, personally, really, deep inside, cos I've been thinking about the days, weeks and months ahead... You know me, I love to think, far, far ahead. Haha, maybe not so bad, but still, after all the talks and expectations/regulations that the teachers gave us, it's impossible for me not to feel that way.

So I'm telling myself, I MUST NEVER CRUMBLE UNDER THE PRESSURE. NEVER. I shall just go all out and enjoy my Sec 3 life. Like what Yan Xin said, screw-ups are unavoidable, it's part of your journey of success. Like failure and success are in pairs. So I have to think positive, and never, ever surrender to giving up! THE SKY IS SO BLUE TODAY, THE SUN IS SO YELLOW/ORANGE! Hahaha! (If you get what I was trying to mean.)

Sorry, these few posts have to be about self-motivation etc, for this point of time, I wouldn't really say it's a culture shock, huh, just wanna encourage myself that it'll be fine. :) You will bear with all the motivation speech yeah? Haha.

There's Guides tmr, like, FINALLY! I'm missing it so much! These few days have been boring for me, cos after school, I just go home, and I have the whole afternoon to myself! Then I was thinking, how I wish I can save up all this free time, and use it whenever time runs out on me! Hahaha, cos I can't stand not doing anything, when you know that in time to come, you will be desperately needing more time.

Ok, back to the topic, GUIDES, I'm so happy that there's Guides, and you know what? I'm suddenly thinking of THINKING DAY! :D Hahaha, I don't know why I'm so excited, just really feel exhilarated for Thinking Day.

My New Year Resolution(s) (NYR) is/are:
1. I want to be more involved in Guides! Seriously!
2. I want to be consistent in grades, or at least get results that I'm fine with, which means not failing! :/
3. I want to be more attached to CPB!

Hmm, are these actually NYR? Ok, I guess I can accept it, haha, aside from the usual ones that I always make every single year, which I don't want to say! :D Heheee.

First day of school! Basically nothing much, no proper lessons, since it's only the very first day in a new class. You know what? People are already complaining that they're sick of school! Seriously, what's wrong with school? Ok, maybe not everyone has such positive outlooks of schools like me... Haha! But then again, just view things optimisticly and everything will be fine. :)

I'm starting to like 3C! 3C is an interesting class, with very interesting people! :D Hehe. And we'll show everyone that 3C is not a geeky, nerdy class who only cares about studying. So not, ok?! I hate it when people come and tell me, "Oh, 3C ahhh, so pro, but every day study study study eh!" Haiyo, not everything is true, alright?

But actually, it's kind of sad to receive so much expectations from everyone, both students and teachers. Especially the teachers, they're expecting everyone to get As. Not everyone is a straight-A student, please bear in mind. Oh, yeah, I just remembered, tmr I'm going to hear more teachers mentioning about their high expectations of us. =.= Bummer.

You know, I really don't know what Sec 3 life has to offer. I seriously don't know. I don't know how busy I'm going to be, whether I'll be involved in Guides, because I really, really want to. And whether I'll be very involved in CPB too. What about studies? So much work this year, next year is the Os already, so this year will be a lot of drilling + new topics/concepts.

Oh yeah, did I mention about 'O' Level Chinese? Yeah, since I'm taking HCL, I need to take 'O' Level Chinese at the end of this year. And it's expected an A1 for every person who's taking this exam in Cedar. The teachers make things sound easy, yet difficult. They say most Cedarians get either A1 or A2, and I'm thinking, wow, you mean it's so easy to get an A for OChinese?! Haha!

In short, I must be prepared to work doubly hard this year, and manage my time really, really well, if I want to have the best of both worlds, or even better, best of three worlds. HAHA!

Jiayou, Rachel, you surely can survive this year! :D

Ok, I'd better get this done fast. (Chem is still incomplete! :/)

Firstly, Happy 2010! I can't really say 'Happy New Year' now, cos it's not New Year's Day, haha. I can't believe 2009 just passed in a flash. It's like, I didn't have any New Year mood! I was like, huh, 2010 is coming already?! So sad, I really enjoyed my 2009 a lot. Sad times, bad times, happy and enjoyable times... That's part of life isn't? We just have to let go, and welcome the new year! :)

As everyone knows, tmr is the start of school for year 2010. As usual, I'm very neutral, I'm excited yet nervous, dreading. It's so normal for me to have this feeling! Every year I'll tell my mum or sister that I'm happy yet sad. Sigh. But it's very funny and cute to see how people will always whine and complain that they don't wanna go to school! :)

Based on the timetable posted on the LMS, most of my teachers are very nice! :D I hope all of them are good. Haha!