I realise that now I have come to many realisations. There are so many things where are so interesting in my life: family, Cedar, 2I, Cedar Guides, Orchid patrol etc etc. Life is so full of interesting ups and downs. Yay, I'm looking forward to next week's Orchid study group! :D

Today's Guides session was really interesting today. I love Orchid more by the day/week! Patrol corners have become so fun after Patrol Day. (: And we've settled that we'll have a study group next week. Even though I admit that I usually prefer to study alone at home, I really don't mind studying with friends, especially with a different group of awesome people! Oh, I believe everything will be fine and the whole study session will be PRODUCTIVE. Haha. People, I trust that we'll all be concentrating on what we're studying/revising yeah? All the best to all Orchidians AOA! :D

I love my art now! I realised (again) that it isn't very difficult to finish my art. Cos I think that my idea is good, quite unique, hah, and it's sthg that I like doing. So naturally I'll put in more effort and pride in it right? Haha, some of my friends already finished it. But what was the price they paid? Sleeping late at night, which I do not agree to. :)

Maybe it's just me
Couldn't you believe
That everything I said and did
wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye
and your calm, hard face
Makes me wish that
I was never brought into this place

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I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die
But it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

Today was a bright start for Term 4. I really wish that everything will be ok. Everything, that my grades, etc will be stable, and promising. I just have to believe in myself. THAT I CAN DO IT. And achieve my goals. So that I can enjoy my holiday 100%.

Back to the first sentence, we had three interesting lessons today - SEL, English and Lit. Haha, surprisingly, Lit (no offence). I shan't go into detail about SEL, but we were discussing on the topic of BGR.
During English, we were majoring on Singlish, especially the 'Ris Low' one. Hah, watched the video and it was so funny! Hahaha. No offence once again, but my whole class can speak better than her! We had a short roleplay about an interviewer, two beauty pageant --- one who speaks proper English, and another one who speaks Singlish. Lol, and I was the interviewer, Carin was the 'proper person' and Jeslyn was the Singlish, as expected. Hahaha.
On to Lit. Hah, still on the same topic of Singlish, and tone. The people that Mrs Menon mentioned were so rude! How could people be so rude when Mrs Menon did not even do/say anything offensive? Hah. Claris, your 'huh-what?' joke really did get on Mrs Menon's and our nerves! Haha.

It turns out that Art only needs to be handed in next week. Thank goodness! :D Oh, and I changed my picture on this blogskin!



Can't I have a little break?

Today is Sunday. Yep, Sunday. It's about time for me to go down to the park now... Shall I rollarblade or cycle? Hahaha there goes me and my talking-to-myself-habit again. :/

I haven't finished art yet, I know I've been dragging it ever since this holiday one-week break started. And I've only studied for Science throughout this week, if you're talking about revision. :( But if you count the Geog mindmap in, then, well, that's another one too. I feel so inferior to some of my friends! People like Joyce, Jing Wen, XY, Jeslyn, Carin etc; makes me feel like I'm not doing the right things. They're muggers! :X

TO YOU: PLEASE DON'T READ WHILE I'M TYPING, READ ONLY WHEN I'M NOT AROUND. It's you, yes you. Thank you.

My name is not funny. Thankyouverymuch.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CELEST! :D

Sorry I forgot to wish you here on 090909. Hee. Thanks for being such a lovely patrol mate! :D

Today we had South Division Healthy Lifestyle Day. No offence, but I think it's somewhat a waste of time. :X Cos only a few people selected from each school/company can take part in the games. And the rest will just sit and do... something else. Which is just wasting your whole morning away... ): I've become so conscious of my time now, esp. since EYE is drawing near... Hah, I'm sure the others are too. But at least this event today is a quick getaway from my study table. Hehe.

Oh, and I should have said that I am familiar with that place ok. Seriously! I've been there every year, since 5 years ago or sthg, and based on my 'great photographic memory', do you think that I'll lose my way? (I'm not being sacarstic here.) I was sad when I couldn't eat at the hawker centre, then pop by Queenstown Library just now. :( I had so much urge to visit that library again, after such a long time! Oh well, it's partly my fault, cos I didn't voice out my opinions and everything properly. In the end, I just had to follow everyone else and take MRT. :( And feed on fastfood. D:D:D: Ahh, whatever. :/

Revision is getting along quite alright, I guess. I realised that I don't have to write out notes for Thermometric Propoerties, Transmission of Heat and Solutions and Suspensions (I)! :D Saves me time. But of course, I still have to go through the notes thoroughly.

JIAYOU FOR REVISION! I WILL and I MUST and I CAN DO IT!

I realise that I'm very fortunate. If I just have to think on the brighter side, everything will be fine. Just that sometimes I don't like it if people don't understand what I'm trying to tell them. I'm not like XY who 'has problems expressing herself', but people just don't understand. I want to curb that particular problem, but things are like, in my way! Silly obstacles. Just wanna kick them.

I realised that 4 days of not blogging isn't very long. Which means I can even go blogging-less for one week! Hohoho. But still, I was very hardworking for the past few days, especially yesterday! xD Yeah, I have to compliment myself. :) I didn't even switch on the computer yesterday! Not even for research etc! Haha. I was depending on my knowledge. And the textbook. Haha. Okok.

I've been stuck with art for the past few days, since Saturday. I wasn't spending all day for the past few days to do art, of course, if not I would have finished it long ago. I was spending the night away doing art. Which means... Three nights of doing art. *yawn* It's very tedious, especially for me, cos I have to draw out the landmarks! Hah, but I'm not regretting my idea, cos I know it's quite unique. :)

I'm getting on alright with homework. YEAH RIGHT. I'm not even halfway through it! Bleh. The art was taking up a lot of my time. And it IS still taking up my time now...

I keep thinking that today is Thursday, and yesterday I kept thinking that that day was Wednesday. Hmm, what's wrong man? I seem to want this holiday to end soon. There're both good and bad points of ending it fast, SO THAT I CAN QUICKLY GET OVER THIS MISERY! But I need time to revise too... I haven't started on any single revision this holiday! :O

I think it's also kinda difficult to get A1 for the Maths EYE. After finishing the Maths papers, my score and grade was so lousy! I mean, you can totally tell whether I was putting in effort or not man. Yeah, I admit that I was very careless. ): Could have snatched at least 5 more marks. =.=

Don't talk about it anymore! Urgh. I'm struggling with Geog now. Alright bye. :)

I feel very sad after reading your blog...
You know now I wonder why, why is everyone around slowly starting to feel sad, to feel dejected, to feel useless and worthless? Not just you, but a few people I know too. I admit that I do feel sad sometimes, I mean, who doesn't?
Life is like a rollar coaster ride, full of ups and downs. But come on, always look on the brighter side yeah? The glass is always half full. You are the one that shape and mould what you want in your life. If you keep thinking negatively, of course whatever you do will turn out to be negative.
Come on, it's really sad to see that your friends are feeling pessimisstic. I know I can't do anything, or say anything to you. I feel helpless! But if you read this, I'll be happy. :) Don't feel sad anymore, ok? ;)

I need to clarify this.

It's not that I don't like outdoors, or I'm not interested in COALS. I love the outdoors, in fact, and I love rock climbing, abseiling, kayaking etc. I love camps, yes! But, but, but (there's always a 'but'), I am really more attracted to Perak trip. I know you might be giving up a rare opportunity, but my heart is sorta with Perak trip. The itinerary really attracts me and interests me! Absolutely ok! I just really hope that I can get in... (I would take part in COALS if there weren't the Perak trip.)

Right, it's the last school day of Term 3. September holidays! Whee! I said 'whee' because it's revision time! It's time to bury my nose in the books! Hahaha. You might think I'm insane. Just trying to be positive here. :)
There's a lot of things to do this week of break. Revision for almost all subjects, Art ideas and A2 board, Malay Oral... Ok, I shall conquer them one by one.
With motivation and determination, I will succeed! :D

I realised I've been blogging very often nowadays. Hahaha.

I was so overjoyed when the announcement this morning said that the EXAM TIMETABLE is already in the class mail tray! :D:D:D Yay! Just yesterday I was complaining to Shirley that we still haven't gotten our timetable yet. And that's irritating. Cos you want to revise but you don't know when the dates are. =.=
Yeah, now that the timetable is in my hands... Hehehe. I can plan my revision plan! Hahaha. I know I sound very kiasu, but you'll be surprised that a lot of people out there (whom you might not know) also do that... But I'll not stress myself out too much (like Jeslyn) and black out during the exam. That's the worse thing that could happen to you! I mean, you study so much, so hard, and then when you're sitting for the paper, your mind suddenly goes blank. =.= Boo man.

I also realised that Joyce loves Maths a lot too. :) She had the same reaction as me when we received 2 sets of Maths revision papers! Hahaha. Now this proves to Xin Yu that I'm not a weirdo who loves doing revision papers. :)

Ok, shall go and start planning for EYE! Haha, bye. (:

Today's Guides session is alright. Such a mix of emotions.

At first I thought it was compulsory for me to join COALS. Then throughout footdrills and the Total Defence Badge I was thinking about this. Not really that I don't want to join COALS, but I very much want to go for the Perak trip! Really!
So I was quite disappointed, then my friends were trying to cheer me up, and convincing me that COALS is good! Yeah! Then my mentality is quiet alright already.

Then after taps, me and Carin went to ask Kaushi whether it's compulsory for all PCs and PSLs to join COALS or not. Then she said that it's not compulsory, but if you wanna go you can, through CPB. But it doesn't matter which board you enter through.

Thanks a lot. Not in a sacarstic way, but then afterwards, I became so confused. Cos I don't know what to choose! Hahaha. Weird. After a few hours of consideration, I decided to go for Perak. I know it's not confirmed whether I'll get in or not, but it's on first-come-first-serve basis, so hopefully tmr I'll be one of the first few to sign up. This time round, the application is quite tight, I know, cos this trip is open to all UGs in Cedar. And the Sec 4s are going, so it's more 'competition' to get in, with more ppl. Hopefully, I'll be able to go.... The itinerary sounds really, really, really interesting! :)

I had quite an interesting conversation with Shirley today on the way home. Yay, I love meaningful conversations that set me thinking...! :)

Boredom! Hohoho. I'm just blog-hopping and facebooking now. And watching the Sports' Day cheers on Youtube. Waiting for it to load...

Well, I shan't say that this whole day isn't productive. I did Science in the morning and a bit of History in the afternoon... Haha. But still, as I'm studying, I don't get why. As in I don't even know when are the dates for the other exams beside the language ones.

Till then!

P/S: Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire is done! I read finished it last night. Yay! It was awesome. :)